caring heart

some people are cruel, but some other people are really nice. I know you know. not everyone have the heart you had. not everyone as kind as you. and not everyone will appreciate your kindness. some people just too busy with their own life. sometimes they forget to be grateful about the tiny things – and just pay attention to the big thing. but nevermind. I never really care if everyone won’t appreciate my kindness. I did it with no thought of any reward anyway. no matter how small; even just come to my friend’s ‘big day’ and give a little present, support my friend’s band by buying their record or just come to their gig, help my friend’s assignment, randomly ask how’s their life lately, bring some snack for my office mates, listen to my friend’s complain about life; and another not-so-big-act-of-kindness. don't you ever tired of being nice to people and try to make them happy. I do it cause it makes me happy. some people tired for everyone who they’ve been there for but haven’t been there for them. but I don’t really give a fuck. well, if you hate being a nice person cause you’re exhausted, then don’t be. you just being cruel to yourself. throw away yourself for doing something you don’t really want to do? nah. my mother once told me, don’t live your life just for yourself. and I’m trying to live my life that way.

-Lana-